Hello all! First, the whole reason I am writing this blog is to get a huge weight off my chest that has been there for years, probably all my life. While I have only recently caught on and have been able to identify the negative forces in my life, I have had a vague sense that something was wrong all along. I always felt there was a part missing, a truth being withheld from me, and that I was somehow raging in the dark against an unseen enemy.
There is a very long complicated back story to all of this which I will address in posts to come. However, I decided to start this blog a day after I have alerted authorities and agencies of the abuses I have been undergoing. I suppose I was afraid to step up and complain about the abuse, after all, I have been raised in a wolf pack family and one who used the Stockholm syndrome quite well. I feel guilt, shame, and an invasion of private family matters when I tell anyone of the hell I have been living in for years. Those feelings I now know were built into me, trained into my head when I was a child. The end of abuse is when the victim speaks out & ends their silence. I have ended mine and I am unfurling my sails.
A little note about the name I chose to write under. I have been inspired greatly by a small red book that one of the best female friends I have had gave to me about a decade ago. For some reason, about 3 years ago, I picked this book up and read it again. Instead of just glossing over the pages, this time I listened and I absorbed. They say when the student is ready, the Guru appears. Mine appeared and since that time I have tried to live those Yogic Shaivism ethics. These ethics have allowed me to rise up from the ashes of the devastation I have lived through and transform my life....and to have the strength to transform my life still. Ahimsa is non violence, Satya is truth, and Kashmiri is a reference to the area of India where these ideas were written about in the book. The book is Yoga of the Heart, Ten Ethical Principles for Gaining Limitless Growth, Confidence, and Achievement by Alice Christensen. Many thanks to the author and many thanks to the soul sister who had given the book to me. Thanks for reading, have a great day.
There is a very long complicated back story to all of this which I will address in posts to come. However, I decided to start this blog a day after I have alerted authorities and agencies of the abuses I have been undergoing. I suppose I was afraid to step up and complain about the abuse, after all, I have been raised in a wolf pack family and one who used the Stockholm syndrome quite well. I feel guilt, shame, and an invasion of private family matters when I tell anyone of the hell I have been living in for years. Those feelings I now know were built into me, trained into my head when I was a child. The end of abuse is when the victim speaks out & ends their silence. I have ended mine and I am unfurling my sails.
A little note about the name I chose to write under. I have been inspired greatly by a small red book that one of the best female friends I have had gave to me about a decade ago. For some reason, about 3 years ago, I picked this book up and read it again. Instead of just glossing over the pages, this time I listened and I absorbed. They say when the student is ready, the Guru appears. Mine appeared and since that time I have tried to live those Yogic Shaivism ethics. These ethics have allowed me to rise up from the ashes of the devastation I have lived through and transform my life....and to have the strength to transform my life still. Ahimsa is non violence, Satya is truth, and Kashmiri is a reference to the area of India where these ideas were written about in the book. The book is Yoga of the Heart, Ten Ethical Principles for Gaining Limitless Growth, Confidence, and Achievement by Alice Christensen. Many thanks to the author and many thanks to the soul sister who had given the book to me. Thanks for reading, have a great day.
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